I considered myself very lucky having my dream job on the very first full-time job when I stepped into the adulthood, which many fashion diploma holder cannot even get it, not to mention, I'm only a finance student with very little knowledge in fashion but carrying a great passion in it. I am as green as the grasses you see in the field, but I'm being thrown to the shop and have to manage it on my own. From getting scolding from those bitchy customers, to getting compliment from the nicest customers. Isn't that a great achievement?
Staying in my current job means, I'm a designer and I design those gowns that brides wear while walking down the aisle, that mothers wear during their child's wedding, that expats wear during their DnD and teens wear during their proms. It also means that I'm nearer to my goal; having my own label. However, it also means that I have to work alone, learn on my own, getting unreasonable request from boss, carrying heavy responsibility, no mentor, no colleagues, no social life and most likely gonna stuck here for a very long time.
Working aboard is something that I always wanted to do. It doesn't matter where, I just want to experience a different life, away from Singapore; the country that many people said it's small and unreal. I was given a chance to work in Cambodia last year, but because I'm unprepared, I gave up that chance. Now, having another opportunity to work aboard, and especially with a good close friend going with me, I really hope I could grab it.
Last year, I'm partially attached, have not turn to a legal age, and I can't bare to leave my family.
Now, I'm single, 21 and as much as I still can't leave my family, I know I have to, because if I don't, I never will.
However, leaving means I have to be selfish, giving my family tons of worries for my safety, my families's and close friends' misses and giving my boss difficulties in manpower issue.
The Alchemist - Paulo Coelho"when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true""the greatest lie in the world is that at some point we lose the ability to control our lives, and become the pawns of fate""fear of failure seems to be the greatest obstacle to happiness"
So tell me if choosing means that I have to give up another and choosing determines how selfish I am. If you were me, what will you choose?
2 comments:
If I were you, I will choose to go. Opportunities only knock at your door once in a while. Every opportunity is at different time and it means it's gonna change part of your life. Risk it while you're young. After all, we only live once. You're still young, there's always enough time for you to fall and get up again. All the best!
listen to your heart, you already convince yourself.
"when you really want something to happen, the whole universe conspires so that your wish comes true".
- birdbird <3
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